august 1, 2005

so on saturday, july 30, i was playing in NC (Winston Cup - a new womens tournament). second game of the day... i was cutting left towards the disc, started going right, then changed directions off the right foot to go back because the disc went up that way. it felt like i planted in some unevenness in the ground or a hole or sorts, and my knee wobbled medially and gave out. subluxation. crunching/grinding sounds. me collapsing in pain. i had my eyes closed for a lot of the time and was trying to calm down. i opened my eyes and saw julia asking if i was ok. i think holly was telling me to take deep breaths. i lay on my back for a minute grabbing tufts of grass, letting the pain subside. i got some help up, and wooten offered to carry me but i could hobble off the field myself putting some weight on the right leg. i sat. layed back. and started crying. mostly because it felt pretty much exactly the same as when i tore my left one in 2001. mak was sitting to my left and crying also. everybody was really nice to me. i got lots of hugs and kisses on the knee. bliss gave me a prescription for vicodin and did some tests, though it was too soon after the trauma to really tell anything. that night, i had a lot of beers delivered to me. and there was some talk about me being a hub... to which i say let's explore the map in more detail. there may or may not have been a round of topless double guns. the next day, the knee was more swollen, not in a whole lot of pain, mostly discomfort and stiffness. still unstable. i thought about 'the test,' which would've involved trying to cut left, and decided i didn't want to put myself through it. in 2001, somehow i thought i was going to play the next day (finals of college nationals), and epstein said, 'ok... if you can go to that cone and then turn right, i'll put you in.'

i'm headed to see the doc (Dr. X; emory sports medicine) wednesday, august 3, to get examined.