I'm having trouble going back to sleep. The best way to describe how I feel is like someone just ran over my head with a train. It's funny how having a hangover will make you feel more vulnerable to everything. I had a really fun night. But i cant stop being sad this morning. I appreciate all my friends who have been concerned about me. I'm fine or shall I say I will be. In a lot of ways I feel like I'm making a big deal out of something that everyone knew would happen sooner or later. But also I know that this is a big deal for me so it makes sense the way I feel. But regardless. There are so many things in my life for me to be thankful for and so many people who care about me and enrich my day to day. Thank you all.